e s o p h o r i a -all about my imperfections as a confused sinner.

Ahh,what a week. English paper is coming up. I'd better brush up on my vocabulary. :)

Sometimes, I try comparing my life to kids of my age - people around me, people my age. The things i do,knowing the ugly side of the world, the ugly side of society,basically. Am i really different? I try very hard to think that i am very much the same. Perhaps, i really am the same. I go to school, I study for exams(maybe not as much as they do,haha), I aspire to get somewhere i want,I go home to a complete family... ... I AM the same. Right?

Not having much mental endurance, i find picking myself up from setbacks,an extremely arduous affair. My main point is - i hope i don't do too badly for prelims...or... ...
It'll confound the dreaded situation that i'm already stuck in now. I struggle from time to time, not to let the thought of it get to me.

I didn't realise i'm stressed out - not until numerous pimples popped out from my forehead!!! *eww* However, I don't think i can afford to adopt a laid-back response to that. I HAVE EXAMS. Bloody hell... hee. Yes, that's my insolent reply to the fact that I HAVE EXAMS. :D
Something inside me seems to be protecting my well-being from being crushed and fragmented by this obscure supernatural exertion of pressure.

Recently, i've been trying to derive a stereotype for males in general.Efforts have been rather futile though... somehow or rather... my conclusion is... 'If you think you're good,there's always people who surpass that standard of yours.So, love with your heart, not because what the other has of has to offer.' The times i spend with my bf, always gets better, despite the unforeseen spoilers during the day.

I need your grace to remind me to find my own,dear.

Andrea Yim
8:21 PM