Tuesday, August 29, 2006

I cant stand to fly
Im not that naive
Im just out to find
The better part of me

Im more than a bird...im more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
Its not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home
Ill never see

It may sound absurd...but dont be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but wont you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream

Its not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
Its all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
Im not crazy...or anything...

I cant stand to fly
Im not that naive
Men werent meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

Im only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street

Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me

Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

Im only a man
In a funny red sheet
Im only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me

Andrea Yim
10:43 PM

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Not for the weak-hearted. Faith's forelegs are recovering fast.. But its still rather disturbing when i changed the dressings. It took me about 45 mins to clean her wounds and change a new bandage.




If you wait for me
Then I’ll come for you
Although I’ve travelled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart

If you think of me
If you miss me
Once in a while
Then I’ll return to you
I’ll return and fill that space in your heart

Remembering your touch
Your kiss, your warm embrace
I’ll find my way back to you
If you be waiting
If you dream of me
Like I dream of you
In a place that’s warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart

Remembering your touch
Your kiss, your warm embrace
I’ll find my way back to you
If you be waiting

Oh I’ve longed for you
And I have desire
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are

Remembering your touch
Your kiss, your warm embrace
I’ll find my way back to you

Please say you’ll be waiting
Together again
It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end

If you can make a promise
If its one that you can keep
I vow to come for you

If you wait for me
And Say you hold
A place for me
In your heart
A place for me in your heart


I miss you baby,would you stay by me forever?

Andrea Yim
5:43 PM

Monday, August 21, 2006

I have to blog about this. The post-trauma due to the catastropic incident that happened over the dreadful weekend,is taking its toll on me. Thank God i slept pretty well last night. Now, you must be wondering what this impacting incident was... so disastrous that it shook this sedated soul out of her laid back attitude.

Faith,my 2 year old golden retriever, was ran over by an SUV.

I barely reached the main road when she dashed across the road immediately instead of her usual sniffing along the sidewalk and trees first. I knew she wouldn't escape the car this time-the speed was too fast for the driver and Faith to handle...

In a split second,i saw Faith lying under the car,struggling and howling profusely - she wanted to get her front paw out from under the tyre.Thus, she sustained some grazes on her sides and a crushed paw with two holes of about a 10 cent coin each, below her paw. The driver recovered from panic, and reversed the car to let Faith out. She scrambled back onto her feet and hobbled to the sidewalk, staining the path with dripping blood as she limped around in shock.I dashed across the road in horror, as my eyes darted around to look for the open wound. The was little splashes of blood under her chin, on the side of her body and more on her left paw.

I checked if her body was injured, as it was of utmost importance that she did not sustain any internal inuries. Then, i held her paw up to find my whole palm covered with blood. A kind passer-by stopped to offer help. I handed my beloved to him as i dashed to the provision shop nearby to grab a bandage to stop her bleeding. Poured some water over her wound, i wrapped it up carefully although it made me look like the lousiest first-aider tn the world. I could barely stand the sight of the raw wound.

My brave little girl didn't cry.

In 10 mins, she was at the vet. The surgeons were pre-occupied in the midst of a surgery and requested that i wait for AN HOUR. I told the receptionist that this dog just met with an accident and is bleeding profusely!!! Guess i couldn't blame her ignorance as Fatih was scampering everywhere, excited and all. The vet called her in immediately.

So much for my brave little crazy dog. I'm sorry but this will have to cost your freedom,Faith.

Andrea Yim
8:33 AM

Saturday, August 19, 2006

"Goodbye My Lover"

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one
.You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby,
I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so,
I'm so hollow.

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the old old fettish...is back :) lol

Andrea Yim
7:38 PM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

"Counting Down The Days"

You were right
And I don't wanna be here
If your gonna be there
Was that supposed to happen

I'll hold tight
I'll remember to smile
Though it has been a while
And without you does it matter

There's no room
No place to start
When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight

I just wanna be a million miles away from here
I'm counting down the days

How've you been
It's just the usual here
And days are feeling like years
And every day's without you

Now I cry
Just a little too much
When I think of your touch
And everything about you
I feel cold
I'm in the dark
When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here

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I shut my eyes forcefully,with brows knitted closely,hoping that my inccessant self-persuasion to sleep would work. The mind defied in direct retaliation. After lying in bed for some 2 hours or so, i jolted out of bed, submitting myself to the nagging voice of conscience within - I should study,instead.

Under the dim orange hue of my bedside lamp, I squinted at my watch. It read 00:13. despite the fact that it was way past my bedtime, I didn't feel the slightest hint of lethargy.

Vaguely, i made my way to the toilet. After an episode of splashing icy cold water on my face, I was all freshened up. Throwing my hair back,the remaining droplets trickled down my face casually. I looked up and my eyes met hers, automatically.

Her facial features had an uncanny semblance that somehow emulated mine. I gazed intently into her bloodshot eyes as she stared back, listlessly. A weary expression hung blatantly on her face. Mildly taken aback, i didn't dare to acknowledge that 'her' whom i was looking at, in the mirror. My face twitched as i gasped in disgust.

'She' had dark circles that betrayed the endless sleepless nights. The dry and creased complexion spoke of every burden she'd bore. It seemed almost impossible to see her smile - smile like she really meant it. I fixed my stare, trying to grasp a better understanding of her through that little window - her eyes.

My efforts were futile as my eyebrows remained creased. I shuffled out with much alacrity, closing the door behind me quietly. Slumped into my chair, i stared into thin air, feeling so so lost...

So numb. It was as good as forgetting who i really was. Like a phoney.I wished i could just disappear from the world, in that split second. Take leave, out of this world, silently and peacefully. Unoticed.

I would smile...when world stops revolving - At the very moment when the incandescent premature sun rays peep over the horizon, over the picturesque mountains. When the humdrum monotony of the insipid night slowly ebbs as i careen down a long windy road overlooking the enitre 'switch-over' of dominance in my world. Only then, when the golden tinge of warmth spill over the treetops and set grassy meadows ablaze, as the morning dew twinkles like sparkling little gems scattered abundantly across the land... I would smile when the clock stops at that very moment.

Till then. my phalanx of conundrums remains...

To love,is to risk not being loved back.
To cry,is to risk the revelation of your weaknesses.










Andrea Yim
6:29 PM

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Hmmm,i just read that Lakehouse is a boring movie!!! Haah! Who says so? Everyone's says its nice. Its unanimous!!! Don't argue... *hurmpf!* Far from being insipid...like 'The Shipping News' !?! sounds so wierd!!! :P Haha. Nah, i'm kidding. To each its own :) Oh yes, Age of Empires 3...Warchief's expansion. I'm anticipating its release in the market... :) soon,i suppose AND hope. Haha.

Its barely been the start of my 'Mugging Bonanza' in preparation for the prelimnary examinations that's just round the corner.To start the ball rolling, I have Physics first,in hand. So, i'm drilling on that now. Being someone who's easily distracted, its particularly arduous to concentrate for long hours just doing ONE SUBJECT. But, i'm trying despite the several comittments i have... For all you know, i'm lost in my own reverie of thoughts...all over again. Bleh...

I feel like a little ant,suspended on someone's palm...trying very hard to find a way out. However, i end up encircling the area in every route and direction i can find...but still find myself stuck...at square one. No wonder we humans never said ants were smart creatures.

After a night's musings...i've come to realise that life is all about priorities and what is IMPORTANT to you. Meaning, that should be placed above what PEOPLE THINK you should do. Most of the time, i end up finding myself living more for others than anything else. But neither do i want to lead a life that i'll end up regretting cos i've never done what i wanted to do - Never felt happy because i've forgotten that happiness is derived from the freedom you are entitled to.

Now,that sucks. I feel that i've just wasted the past 17 years of my life.

Mixed emotions start flooding in. Its high time i do something about my dysfunctional ideologies or way of life. I can't go on living like this. I'd never be able to answer to myself. Taking a look at others, perhaps i should be feeling happier cos at least, my miniscule problem is incomparable to the phalanx of obstacles lined up for them to eliminate. But, i realised... its STILL a problem - A problem tantamount to a hindrance of a healthy development of my character.

We'd never find an idyllic situation, a comfort zone where we can settle peacefully. That's life. Humans are complicated creatures. We often find ourselves searching for an answer,that we'd never find. Wanting the things we'd probably never get. And...not knowing what we have till we lose it for good.

I've been losing a little sleep lately, partially due to mugging sessions. Then again, these little issues about life and my obstinate refusal to accept the facts, are causing the other part. Is it really so difficult? My effronteries are causing an inaudible harangue in my head...the little numbskull.

Yes, i'm numb from thinking.


I cry, to remind myself that i can still feel myself...and feel for others...and thus, love.

Andrea Yim
11:46 AM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Some announcements....I've got a freaking B4 for chinese o levels. :( was expecting a b3 actually.looks like i'm gonna re-take. If it doesnt get any better, i'll just forgo its inclusion for my L1R4 for o's to enter poly. Chinese...not my cup of tea.

I can't sleep. Have been spending quite a bit of time...blatantly zoning out and sorting out options in my head. Understanding why some people act the way you dont like them to be and why I MYSELF act in a way, differently. I mean, everyone has flaws...

I shall turn in soon....before i have eye bags that resemble that of a panda. Eeks!!!
Will update my blog soon :)


i'm thankful for my wonderful baby...really. it the commitment that rarely comes by as sincere and strong as yours...

Andrea Yim
4:17 AM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Andrea Yim
12:28 AM

The .Me.

Yimmie aka Yimzika

Turns a year older on 24th Nov

Tennis!

Running!

Wakeboarding

Cycling

Baking cookies for my goombah!

My golden retriever,Faith!

My grizzly bear

Sun tanning at Sentosa with Faith

Pinetrees :p

The dreadful past

11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005
12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006
01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006
02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006
03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006
04/01/2006 - 05/01/2006
05/01/2006 - 06/01/2006
06/01/2006 - 07/01/2006
07/01/2006 - 08/01/2006
08/01/2006 - 09/01/2006
09/01/2006 - 10/01/2006
10/01/2006 - 11/01/2006
11/01/2006 - 12/01/2006

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