e s o p h o r i a -all about my imperfections as a confused sinner.

Today was one of the busiest days throughout the entire week. First it was school,then speech day rehearsal,then arcade bonanza at PS,then lunch at Colin's,then...tennis trainings,then dog walk at 9:30pm,finally... ... home sweet home.

After a what-seemed-like-eternity tennis training...we could finally clear the court and go off.I lugged my belongings and made my way to the car. Thank God someone drives me home! :) Somewhere on the way back, i felt like running. I decided to take my not-so-little-yet-not-so-big dog out for a while.Guilt was like an admonishing finger that reprimanded me of my negligence towards her(Faith,my dog). Yeah,i admit i've been neglecting her lately.

So,i took her lamb formula treat and sliced it into two carefully,with her retractable leash in the other hand and whistled for the loyal companion of mine.I could hear the enthusiasm from the jingle of the lisense plate on her metal choker leash.She sped to me,jumping up and down as if she couldn't contain the excitement that raged in her.The intelligent canine knew i was going to accompany her out for a cool walk in the night.She was DELIRIOUS. I chuckled at her with mixed feelings.

I felt sorry. She seemed deprived of her daily walks which showed that im a lousy owner.Which i really am.But at the same moment, i felt happy just seeing the joy in her. She didnt change at al. She still ran ahead of me, looking back from time to time making sure i'm in sight. She crossed the road only when i crossed. It was a short walk.

I arived at the park/playground,pleasantly surprised by the new introduction of a white bunny amongst the 3 black others. They were extremely adorable. Fatih played a round of catching with them,still keeping her distance making sure she doesn't scare them away.Then, she trotted around and sat below me to rest.

Settled in the middle of the enitre park, i was comforted by the towering trees that provided excellent shade. The breeze was light and cool. In addition to that, the dimly lit park had a tendency of lulling me to sleep. I sat there and thought...nothing's free in this world.Or, there's no such thing as free lunches. But, we often take God for granted.

I'm not saying that all you are baddies- lousy people cos you sin... I sin too. I wouldn't want to keep a track of them cos they'll just make me feel depressed. hat's how bad it is. But, i realised that many sin not on purpose BUT because of the deceptive world we live in today. Atrociously marred by decadance and corruption.Blemished would be too light,a word.

The bible clearly stated in the new testament that its never easy to be a christian...who follows the word righteously and faithfully.Sometimes,we sin without even realising it. Because everyone's doing it. Its a norm. And of cos, you're a norm right? Bullcrap. I dont know what im talking about...

Excuse me.

I'll reconsolidate my thoughts and blog again sometime soon. ;)

Thank you, my faithful readers! :) Whoever you are :)

i'm missing you love

Andrea Yim
12:26 AM