Updates about the kidney dialysis...My blood isn't looking very good, but its not that bad either. So the doctor have decided to wait for half a year. If it doesn't turn any better,I'll have to go for treatment. :( Pray more!!!TO WHOM IT MAY BE OF CONCERN - not now. Yes,throng me with tonnes of questions that of a corporate interrogation and imaginative disbeliefs...an accusing tone of unfaithfulness and jealousy. Well...overwhelming emotions that i can't portray...but believe me. I feel so lousy...sometimes, i wonder why do we have to have a good heart... It'll just be the downfall of the person... Not that people take advantage of it...but circumstances that priorities and selfish sacrifices forces one to give up a precious something....something so dear to our hearts...something's gotta give. Yeah...I'm sorry you're the one i'll have to let go... I'm moving on...Maybe I'm just consoling myself that i'm moving on. I don't feel better actually. Perhaps I'm just trying...trying really hard cos it feels so damn horrible... ...un-break my heart,will you? there's just too much pain and misery.
Baby, i love you... does this still mean anything to you? I'm sorry im starting to doubt you. 'For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God'...I'm not perfect, I'm sorry... ...
Andrea Yim
11:48 PM
GEORGE MICHAEL lyrics - "Father Figure"
That's All I Wanted
Something special, something sacred -In your eyes
For just one moment
To be bold and naked
At your side
Sometimes i think that you'll never
Understand me
Maybe this time is forever..
Say it can be
That's all you wanted
Something special, someone sacred -In your life
Just for one moment
To be warm and naked
At my side
Sometimes i think that you'll never
Understand me
But something tells me together
We'd be happy(baby)
I will be your father figure(oh baby)
Put your tiny hand in mine(i'd love to)
I will be your preacher teacher(be your daddy)
Anything you have in mind(it would make me)
I will be your father figure(very happy)
I have had enough of crime(please let me)
I will be the one who loves you -Until the end of time
That's all i wanted
But sometimes love can be mistaken
For a crime
That's all i wanted
Just to see my baby's
Blue eyed shine
This time i think that my lover
Understands me
If we have faith in each other
Then we can be
Strong
I will be your father figure
Put your tiny hand in mine
I will be your preacher teacher
Anything you have in mind
I will be your father figureI have had enough of crime
I will be the one who loves you
Until the end of time
If you are the desert
I'll be the sea
If you ever hunger -Hunger for me
Whatever you ask for
That's what i'll be. .
So when you remember the ones who have lied
Who said that they cared
But then laughed as you cried
Beautiful darling
Don't think of me
Because all i ever wanted
It's in your eyes baby, baby
And love can't lie.
No...(greet me with the eyes of a child)
(heaven is a kiss and a smile)
Just hold on, hold on
I won't let you go, my baby
I will be your father figure
Put your tiny hand in mine
I will be your preacher teacher
Anything you have in mind
Will be your father figure
Have had enough of crime
So i am gonna love you)
Until the end of time
Will be your father
Will be your preacher
I'd be your daddy
Will be the one who loves you until the end of time
Andrea Yim
12:41 AM
"If You're Not The One"
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one
I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms
Andrea Yim
4:04 AM
"Stand By Me"
Nothing's impossible
Nothing's unreachable
When I am weary
You make me stronger
This love is beautiful
So unforgetable
I feel no winter cold
When we're together
When we're together
[chorus]
Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told
When day turns into night
I look into your eyes
I see my future now
All the world and its wonder
This love wont fade away
And through the hardests days
I'll never question us
You are the reason
Why only reason
Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told
I am blessed
To find what I need
In a world loosing hope
You're my only belive
You make things right
Everytime after time
Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told
[Repeat chorus]
Stand by me
No more darlin
I want you by my side
I want you here with me
Every single word of this song speaks of overwhelming emotions and feelings that my heart feels for you.
Andrea Yim
3:21 PM
An impending parental divorce. What can be worse than that,especially when you have the choice to follow but can't make up your mind? I'm so utterly confused. Who am I to believe!? I really really don't know. Take me away, to a paradise, far away from such trudgery in life. I don't like this feeling.Somebody,just whisk me away.
Andrea Yim
9:02 PM
Few songs that keep ringing in my head incessantly these days.1. Incomplete by Backstreet Boys2. Crawling Back To You by Backstreet Boys3. Catch Your Wave by The Click Five1. "Incomplete"
Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can't find no way
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete
Incomplete
2. "Crawling Back To You"
Everybody knows that I was such a fool to ever let go of you
Baby I was wrong
Yeah I know I said we'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart, I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you
I know you're in there and you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
It's the least that I can do, just to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself, now I'm dying in this hell
Girl I know you're mad, I can't blame you for being mad
But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and now I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you
If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You will see a different man
But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you (come on)
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in? (let me in)
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you
Banging on your front door (darling)
My pride spilled on the floor
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you, yeah
Now I'm crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
3."Catch Your Wave"
In the middle of the night
That's when you caught my eye
I chased you round in memories
Through the breeze and the trees and you tease me
But hey
The clock's turning around
And you're still playing these games
It's such a waste to bring me down, down, down
Don't bring me down cause
Hey girl,I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl,I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl,you've got an undertow
Hey girl,hey girl, don't wanna let you go
When I turned sixteen
That's when I started to dream
I chased you round in memories
Through the breeze and the trees and you tease me
But hey
Well every princess has her knight
And I'm still in it for the fight
Not givin' in, I'm gonna win, win, win
I'm gonna win cause
Hey girl,I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl,I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl,you've got an undertow
Hey girl,hey girl don't wanna let you go
I'm never gonna let you go
Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl, you've got an undertow
Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you
Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl, you've got an undertow
Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you
Hey girl, hey girl don't wanna let you go
I'll never let you go
Alright
Andrea Yim
6:41 PM
I feel defeated. I surrender. Can't get to sleep. Staying awake, i can't seem to find the reason to this nocturnal exception. Its quiet,still and dead. As dead as the 'me' on the inside. The 'me' most of you have never and will never know. He's fast asleep from a hard day's work.Good night baby.I still love you.
Andrea Yim
4:09 AM
Ah, the mark an end of exams. But its not the last so, i've got nothing much to be happy about. Nevertheless, i shall relax!!! For a while... I 've been hooked onto the game 'Age of Emipires 3' recently. I can foresee what's next... * Civilisation 4'. trust me, i will. :p that ain't a good thing. A sacrifice of time i'm supposed to spend at the books. I'm staring at the screen not knowing what to write about. Great. Haha. I don't know this thing about sparing a thougt for others and not doing unto people what you hate do befall upon,personally. Hey, everyone's human too,like you.And, in case you forgot, i'm still human. They have rights, feelings and emotions. Sometimes people suppress their feelings to save the hassle of picking a fight or falling out with each other.Will they explode one day, depends on how bad the situation and the capacity of patience and endurance one has.I don't know why this just keeps popping into my head, even when playing my com game. Help. my brain's not in control!Just ran about 5click today. I realised running is a good way to release yourself from emotional torment and pain. The physical pain helps you forget about the emotional disturbance MOMENTARILY. I would like to emphasize on that word, yes. Thus, i just felt like running and running and running... ...i wished there was no tomorrow.I am still here. :) still a hahatoot. still very much a goombah, at least i think so.
Andrea Yim
12:48 AM
Haha. Yes, i found that sign intriguing. My blog is a little stagnant due to exams. Hopefully, it will resume thereafter. :) For now, i'll just post some pics. That's me at treetop walk, guess what...I went there on a public holiday and i needed to QUEUE to walk across the suspension bridge. Call that nature... Hmmm... I'd think twice about going again. ;) It ain't that fantastic anyway. :p Probably the crowed taht irked me. I shall not go into details. heh. Its rather ugly. :)
thanks for your love baby... that i can stand and not fall,like before.because of you... ... ;
Andrea Yim
8:45 PM
