e s o p h o r i a -all about my imperfections as a confused sinner.

He who dwells in the shelter of the
Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the LORD ,
'He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.' Surely he will save you from
the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence.

Psalm 91:1-4

Ahh,its the beginning of a new week. My brain's been quite dead and not thinking much except for work,work and more work. Everyone needs a break. Everyone needs a holiday-a getaway from things or even people whom they face. At work, at school,at home... ect. That's why, we have holidays and what-nots. We're just human...afterall.

Everything,in its time. A time to play,a time to work,and a time to let go. A time to play, but somehow, what if there are too many people at the merry go round?Everyone is trying to look for an answer to their purpose in life, here on earth. I fall on my knees and try to pray,everytime. For you, for me. In the silence, i feel pathetically helpless. Every step doused with a trepidating fear, of taking a wrong move. I can't fight this feeling anymore.

Perhaps i should just relax,being paranoid. Paranoia is a scary thing. I've probably grasped the sand a little too tightly that what it could withstand. I'm sorry. i have to do this. I know i'm selfish. Forgive me.

Letting go,keeping quiet and smile :) won't there,then, be peace?

Sometimes late at night, i wished i was watching you sleep. And the tought strikes me. if i never am able to wake up in the morning, and tomorrow was not reality, would i ever regret? That i've not loved you enough? That i've caused you so much hurt,so much pain and so much trouble. To tell you how much you mean to me... then, i wonder, what would you do,if tomorrow never comes.

Two people,two lives. Impossibly perfect,amazingly sacrificial.

Andrea Yim
10:54 PM