e s o p h o r i a -all about my imperfections as a confused sinner.

And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope.
Now hope does not disappoint, because of the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

Romans 5:3-5

When our daily tasks start to consume our time, space of mind and effort...we begin to lose humanity and tend to stray away from human touch. I pray hard that this would not happen to me...
We start neglecting loved ones as we begin to take into mind the more prominent priorities -work and the money. The two aspects of life whereby humanity and sympathy is negligible.

I begin to ponder such innocent necessity of life -to work for a living ,could bring such monstrocities to lives. Resulting in broken homes,marriages,juvenile delinquency a resulting behaviour of their children... a younger generation full of uncomplete sentences, answers , hatred, devastation

I do not thirst, nor do I admire high flying jobs, fetching hefty sums of salary people drool over. I'd rather preserve my sanity and be down to earth. It's good to have a sufficient,dependable amount of money as support when age starts to pose problems to our health and hinders our ability to contend to daily tasks.

I do, gawk at insanely priced branded items that few can afford. I do, wish, sometimes, i were them instead, to be able to spend that amount of money and walk away feeling as if it was just nothing. To have all the attention fixed on you. But, thinking twice, I'd rather choose a warm, closely knit relationshiop with my loved one... and live simply, and to be contented with the simplicities of life. To be able to thank God for a fridge that is filled with food, a comfortable bed to sleep in, a proper roof over our heads and most importantly, the joy and purity of sharing such moments with the one close to your heart. And to make known to each other how much they mean, in each other's lives.

For saying all these, majority of the readers would probably be taunting at my almost impossible 'dream'. This would be a joke. I'd be silly, given the amount of pressure on almost every working adult - to strive for a better position,better pay,better relationship with the people 'up there',better reputation than the rest, better... ...

You know what i mean. I'd not be surprised you are guilty of my 'conviction' stated above.

I'll end here; my 'no-head-no-tail' random thought.

Well," its nice to know that you go home and have a shoulder to lean on" - Mr Lee S.B.

Likewise, I'll always be here too, for you to lean on. My shoulders might not be broad, but I hope it can hold your head. Just yours, in case you cry. In case you need me. In case... ...

Whenever you call upon me...there I'll be.

Andrea Yim
6:53 PM

勇气 (Courage)

主唱Sang by: Michael Wong (光良)
作曲Song written by : Michael Wong (光良)
作词Lyrics by : 瑞业

终于做了这个决定(I have made up my mind at last)
别人怎么说我不理(I will not care about what the others say)
只要你也一样的肯定(Just as long as you are as sure as I am)
我愿意天涯海角都随你去(I am willing to follow you no matter where you go)
我知道一切不容易(I know everything is not easy)
我的心一直温习说服自己(my heart kept on persuading myself)
最怕你忽然说要放弃(I fear most if you give up suddenly)

爱真的需要勇气(Love really needs courage)
来面对流言蜚语(To face rumors and slander)
只要你一个眼神肯定(Just a look of agreement in your eyes)
我的爱就有意义(Then there is meaning to my love)

我们都需要勇气(we also need courage)
去相信会在一起(To believe that we will be together)
人潮拥挤我能感觉你(In the sea of people,I can feel you)
放在我手心里(Placed in my hands)
你的真心(The sincerity of your love)

如果我的坚强任性(If my willful and headstrong ways)
会不小心伤害了你(Hurts you by accident)
你能不能温柔提醒(Will you please remind me gently)
我虽然心太急(Even though my heart is too excited)
更害怕错过你(The more I fear,at the thought losing you)

Andrea Yim
4:41 PM

One day, dear God,

You will take me home

that i will no longer suffer

and no longer be sad

You will hold me in Your arms.

Now,You're keeping me strong

to fight this battle

and win the race

then i may say

I've fought a good fight,

I've finished the race

and i've kept the faith

2 Tim 4:7

Whatever your cross,

whatever your pain,

there will always be sunshine after the rain.

Perhaps you may stumble,

perhaps even fall,

but God's always there to help through it all.

I'm very comforted.Thanks pris! I've been enjoying school days more... thank God. Although i still dread chinese lessons. I think the teacher gave up on me. :p

I've no inspiration to blog. I shall 'blog- hop' and see wat's everyone up to (:

Take care people, i'll be praying for everyone, even if you least expect it, I am...

I was totally mesmerised by this song. It talks about the necessity of having the courage to love someone,again. It feels so good to know that someone knows how you feel,accompanied with melodious tunes that soothes the soul. Its very true. If you want my love,you have to prove you're worth my effort. I have to perpetually,literally, brave the unpleasant circumstances,what-come-may,to walk this journey. Until my wings are strong and hard to fly and soar in the skies.

Till then... ... when i am able to soar majestically,like an eagle...i promise you,i'll be there.

(: for the first time, i'm signing off, feeling happier. I wonder why... ...*ponders*

Andrea Yim
6:56 PM

Do not be glad at the fall of your hater, and let not your heart have joy
at his downfall: For fear that the Lord may see it, and it may be evil in his
eyes, and his wrath may be turned away from him.

Proverbs 24:17,18

Hold me,Hold me
tight.I fear to fall and
break.
My tired legs can hold
me no more.

Why can you not hear my anguished pleas
Why can you not understand?

You bore me within you, in your womb,

Why do you drop me now?

Why do you let me fall and shatter?

WHy do you let my heart break?

Why do you cause its splittering, shattering,

LIke fragile china ware?

The crown you've placed upon my head,

It is too heavy, take it off.

Whatever I do, am doing, its all for you

Just don't give me anymore.

I am not jeremiading,

Listen to my harangue.

I beg you, make up your mind,

So that I may find my rest.

Hold me,Hold me tight,

I fear to fall and break.

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I feel nothing. I'm fighting a spiritual warfare. If you don't know how it feels like... perhaps i could provide a clue or two...But, i promise you, I'll win this battle. I'll win you.

I'm such a burden to everyone...my friends,my parents...the people around me...All i bring is trouble,worry and anxiety.Perhaps this is a warning to all the people around me, to stay away. I won't bring any good... ... do think twice.

But I want you to stay... I treasure all of you...

Hold me. I'm so afraid I will fall.

I'll never be able to stand again if I do.

Don't let go.

Hold me,tight.

Andrea Yim
5:21 PM

I am forgotten by them as though I were dead; I have become like broken pottery. For I hear the slander of many; there is terror on every side; they conspire against me and plot to take my life. But I turst in you, O Lord; I say, "You are my God". Many times you deliver me from your enemies and from those who pursue me. Let your face shine on your servant; save me in your unfailing love.

Psalm 31:12-16

I was just discussing with Pris over Psalm 22 in school earlier on today. We were wondering why there are doubts about God written in the Bible. I realised why after reading on... haha. It was how differently God treats the sinners as compared to how we,earthly men, treat those who sin against us. So, i left my bible there and played Quake 4 on the PC. and guess what...

Miraculously, the wind blew and I didn't notice the pages had flipped a little. When i decided to rest from the strenuous gaming...i looked down on my bible and somehow, my eyesight automatically fell upon the first verse of the stanza,at the top. That's how i got my verse for today(at the top). It striked me so hard. As if it was for someone...or is it for me? Hmmm...

Strengthen your virtues and pillars that you hang on to in life, hold on to what's stable...what's lasting that will help you pull through the hard facts of life in the cruel world today where nothing's certain. These few verses comforted me. And it is my prayer that this verse comforts others,to whoever this would apply to :)

Hmm, i realise there are alot of things many people yearn for and literally drool over. A pair of Salvatore Ferragamo stillettos/sandals and a vintage looking LV handbag for the chicks? An Armani shirt perfected with an attractive scent from Escada, for the hunks in the club? An entire homeDJ rack complete with a fully sound-proof room and Sennheiser headphones with Wireless Technology,not forgetting the Denon Amp and unsatisfactory Bose spund quality for the DJ-to-be? The new ps3 or/and xBox 360 with limited editions game packages... a fast processor for the comp...a better sound card...graphic card* sorry i suck at it when it comes to the techonogy part*...for the tech geeks? Original/better quality lenses and flash for the SLR for the ones who love to capture moments that might be hard to come by,again , or simply take it as a hobby cum profession later on in life after they perfect the skill of photo-taking.

...Hmmm...maybe i want a...i really can't think of what else i want in life,materialistically. Maybe a new tennis racket,the Wilson n series,although i think its over-rated('cos they're selling the brand more than the real quality,itself).looks like you gotta think really hard about what to get me for my birthday, Its about 7-8 months away. You can start thinking now. :) haha.

Just remember,don't turn away from God,'cos He has always been there and will still be,no matter what. Acknowledge His presence in your life...and start to unravel the wonders and blessings He can't wait to pour out unto you.Embark on that new journey,dwell in the love and teachings of our Lord and you shall be blessed.

I will have mercy on whom I have mercy,and I will have compassion on whom I have compassion.
Romans 9:15

Andrea Yim
5:53 PM

But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions--it is by grace you have been saved. For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-- not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good
works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

-Ephesians 2:4-5,8-10

I shall disgest these two verses over this during lunch...and will be back... :)

Andrea Yim
11:37 AM

Was just chatting with some of my friends online and.... i got to know her better through a 'Johari Window'!!! So if you wanna know me better, click here. :) Tra la las. Its the weekend!!! Whee~

The past is a facade, fading away slowly...never to be mentioned...never to be a setback that hinders me to strive for what i want in life.I'm moving on, are you?

Andrea Yim
11:11 AM

Let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water,let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.
And let us consider one another in order to stir up love and good works, not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the manner of some but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching.
Hebrews 10:22-25
The humid afternoon is in direct contradiction to my mood. This thing about putting my security in God keeps going through my mind. As much as i get my life going and back in track...as I begin to place things in where they should belong... I ponder when it came to the element,'security'. Instantly, i knew it would be a struggle between my spiritual and wordly needs.
Being absolutely and purely -human- , i know how much i need the emotional support from my fellow peers and even more from loved ones...to have people to be there. But i have to start realising that, even when all else falls apart, God held me from the very beginning. I should start to feed on His love and support, for it was the one which held me first. I've turned my back on His love. How wretched, I am.
I'll hang on firm and tight, to what's stable and what's true and what's eternal.
Most of all, hang on to a source of love that you trust in, that you can rely on. So that you will not fall, and hurt yourself.

Andrea Yim
1:20 PM

Give ear to me then, my sons: for happy are those who keep my ways. Take my teaching and be wise; do not let it go. Happy is the man who gives ear to me, watching at my doors day by day, keeping his place by the pillars of my house. For whoever gets me gets life, and grace from the Lord will come to him. But he who does evil to me, does wrong to his soul: all my haters are in love with death.

Proverbs 8:32-36

Was just 'blog hopping' and came across Elliot's blog and found this verse rather intriguing.

I haven't been blogging for a while...so I decided to start writing again.Guess this verse did speak to me about resting in God...and just following Him.

I am utterly grateful for Pris. Its just so amazing how she came into my life, and how He drew us closer. It had NEVER came across my mind that we would be enjoying each other's company so much,just sharing about our little walk with God and the amazing things he does that never ceases to amaze us time and time again.

Thus, I guess I've learnt not to take things for granted for i find these people who stood by me, so special and unique. I've learnt this lesson the hard way, and I'm sure I'm gonna keep it well and close to my heart.

So, my message to Pris(and Polarbear), hang on in the love of God...its good to have devotion together. I will never forget the sermon you(Pris) shared with me.

We must always pray in the truth and confess our sins before God, to come clean to be truthful to the people around you.Only then, we can learn to trust and hear Him more...and continue to walk in the light of His great love and blessings. Nevertheless...God loves us for who we are,as long as we don't turn our backs on Him and have a heart for Him.

So,to me, its good to pray together at night and do devotion together...to be in the '3 people relationship' that you wanted. Cos you are not only accountable to God...but that dearest one,too.

We love ,because He first loved us. So remember,that love was unconditional love. A love that accepts you for who you are, a love that was sacrificial. So, the truth about all these will only reveal when both pray in truth and confession,that your spirits be renewed everyday...to love each other wholeheartedly and...more importantly, dwell in the love of God,together. :)

I love all of you! I'll be praying for you (Pris) and Polarbear... ohh, and Ju-er and Aaron too! not forgetting everyone... Kit... everyone :)

Andrea Yim
7:16 PM