Battered by emotional torture
Indeed, my emotional status, now, like a barren land, acrid and dry. Like a holocaust that hit so hard, without any warning. Instantly,everything that stood firmly rooted to the ground, simply fell apart.
I was astonished by such great power ; the way this natural phenomenon cripple me in such a brutal,assertive manner.
I can't say 'no' to this undescribably horrid feeling that hit me so abruptly. I wan't even prepared. Now, like that piece of debris-littered land, I'm devastated. All hopes seemed to be suctioned out instantly. Fears began to taunt and belittle what pathetic amount of faith that's left within me.
I never knew the origin of such dreaded disasters. Probably, it was never meant to be. I'm starting to believe so, due to the fact that i am still entrapped in this mystery. I'm just afraid that it's repeated occurences will not hinder the wonderful blessings showered unto me. What if... i do not have the strength to heave myself out of such instances...
The image of that land,vividly etched in my memory.It used to be a land of flourishing greenery, where light hearted chirping of the sparrows that flutter around, roam carefreely. Their ceaseless bouts of energy, inducing a tantalizing atmosphere that cheers the heavy hearted. Flowers bloom at your feet,slowly opening up to the direction of the sun , so positively vibrant. Morning dew settle upon the grassbed, glistening in the warm gentle rays... ...
It used to... God,what happened? Why?
then again, i begin to ponder, going round in the dark, circling endlessly,clinging onto the hope to find the answer that i've been pining for.. I shall leave it to you, Father... I lay my burdens in your mighty hands,ashamed as i kneel at your feet, i cry and feel comforted.You heard me O Lord, this i know.
Andrea Yim
10:11 PM
