To apologise...or not to?
Guess it was never a habit that was instilled in us(my siblings and i). We had to learn it from the school or within our frens...or from some kind old wise grandmother or uncle... ... Maybe i should start practising the art of being PROACTIVE instead of being passive and take things for granted. Its a BIG leap,it is. If a parent is suppposed to educate their kid and at least TRY to be role models, shouldn't they be the one acting first? What's the point of ignoring the kids after giving them a good thrashing??? does that mean you can leave them alone because they look alright? not retarded yet? no blood clogs in the brain? no swellings on the face from the incessant tight slaps?
Well,then let me tell you... the kid has already mended the physical pain... ... him/herself. But whaT about the emotional pain,scars? If the kid is strong enough, good for him/her...the wound might heal...MIGHT. if it doesn't...well...it stays...like a scar that mar beauty that lies within. What's tragic would be... the hurt causing an after effect...probably a wierdness in character......or a malfunction of the EQ...not IQ. Or, a foul attitude towards life...and mannerism towards people. Who knows?
I'm just hoping that i don't become a victim of all these bullshit. Perhaps, i already am. All i need is some good music to tranquilise the confused,frantic soul... slow down and think carefully... ... Yea, maybe i have to swallow my pride... Arrgh...its so difficult... Hope things will get better after i did. All these do have a chain reaction...and it is a process that carries down for years...before you realise the cause...the root of the problem, ur entangled in a list of problems that cause sleepless nights, a messed up YOU. Then. it'd be more difficult to get out.Emotional fitness conditioning is what I need... to accustom to the different situations,like this.
I know its irritating that i don't give a full picture. Its long...and im just plain lazy to type everything out.
I guess i'm starting to get a taste of what life is... my sincere apologies to the people whom i have neglected... ... or feel neglected...or those who think i'm selfish. Welcome to the world...where selfish people overpower the rest, isn't it?
Admit it.
Andrea Yim
7:05 PM
