Daddy,happy 52nd birthday... !!! ]T'was my dad's birthday today. went down to Changi Sailing club for a nice,quiet dinner by the sea.Ambience and settings were not bad-warm and gentle. Service was commendable. the yellow orchid was on the table. taken by a Canon EOS300D. its an SLR... heh.
Now, u must be wondering what is that paper smacked into my dad's face. well, if u can see...its his birthday card from his 3 beloved children. lol. if you look closer, its a picture of a poker card,king of hearts...but the king's head is replaced by my dad's head. :) Haa... specially for someone who worships power and authority :)
Oh wells,there goes the day... this song that's playing brings memories...bitter sweet ones... re-visiting the past,down memory lane. haah. talking about that, im missing someone. wondering what he's doing. hmmm...anyways...
thanks to Delyse for putting me for the free california fitness membership!!! i love you lots!!! muacks! found out that u can only go to the outlet you have signed up for... what the hell..then again, i shall not complian. its better than nothing! :) time to burn the fats!!! yays!
good nite.
Andrea Yim
11:05 PM
i was talking about my ps2's sound system. look! its all done up. :) haah. i feel so happy. thats my little ps2 on the arm rest of the sofa in the hall. :) yippies!
btw, my neighbor just told me he could FEEL THE VIBES this morning. oops! sorry matt! :p heh...think its not a good sign... :)
Andrea Yim
10:52 PM
Wa eh ang mo see beh ho... (hokkien)English version: my english(inggerish) is very good.
I just wanted to share something which i just happened to come across in Friendster...which i found amusing so, i'll put it up here to let u guys have a look and hopefully obtain some comic relief from it :) haa...
To me, this article is just someone with sub-standard english(or rather, ingerrish) trying REALLY HARD to act as if he/she knows his/her english super well.here's the note from the girlfriend to boyfriend.
<< color="#ff6666">take offense and is not resentful. Love takes
not pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth.It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure
whatever comes.>> dear dear, we have been thru three months to learn all this..
though is still not to the best, but i know that we will be able to perfect it
if we are been bond together. way before, i
don believe true love, but you came along and
prove it to me. for all this while, we have been thru ups and downs. happy and sadness.
sweet moment and arguement moment. but some how we have managed to sort out finally... thanks for everything..... thanks for
been the one who showed me the meaning of true love.... after all, our relationship is a
lost found treasure..... Love you always ok... :> and please smile more la...... (haiz.... don always sian sian)
now, you must be wondering, how is the boyfriend like? does he talk to her like that too? well...look here! from the guy to his beloved...
Hey Lao Po!!!This pretty little lady here is my lao po, she agree to it one hor...Lao po, i know so many things happen throughout this 3 months.Like u say, we may face even worse things in the furture, but as long as we stay bond with oneanother, things will be solve together.remember wor...dun hid things in ur heart ok...muacksHaah...well. It just irks me at the sight of all these ah bengs and ah lians or whatever else... oh wells...say,i did have a good laugh... i hope they write more often... good for de-stressing . haah.
Andrea Yim
10:26 PM
Bimbo shopping in town. :p
Im so tired. went earing shopping today... i'll go into the details the next time i blog....hopefully tomorrow... went to bugis, toa payoh, newton...and then coronation to eat :)
peaceouts people...
Andrea Yim
11:16 PM
bORED IS NOT AN EXCUSE.
My dog's been quite cute lately...sticking to me like glue
There's this error. and closed down the whole window when im typing halfway. darn.
im so so pissed.
anyways, had a great weekend. had a birthday party,on-the-deck.as in , in a boat owned by the birthday boy's dad. :) was a Raffles Marina...at Jurong. They even had a live band. the playing was still fine...but when the singing started, i was thrown a few feet forwards... cantonese songs ... WTF??? sub standard. walked down the piers where the boats are parked, watched sunset.was quite emotionally liberating for me. Got tired of the place after eating the widely spread buffet... everyone labelled me as the bird-like-eater. thats damn sad. heh. oh wells.
took a ride around singapore at about 1 am... went to cool nightspots like harbourfront, yishun dam... sentosa... labrador park... etc.
had a lazy day at home today. ordered pizza for lunch... and the dog ate it!!!! oh my, i had the spicy little drumlets left for myself. just when i thought she's been really cute lately... ... maybe its the need for more food and nutrition during her pubescent years. lol. bathed her in the evening. now, she smells good.
was walking Faith yesterday when a black retriever passed by,alongside with its owner during one of her evening runs. it charged towards poor Faith like a bolt of lightning. Faith was peterified to the core and ran to the other end of the road, eyes fixed on the black retriever in case he strikes again. stupid owner, couldn't even control her bloody dog properly.
walked her past a few houses, and there was this male golden retriever whith a very nice coat but, had lotsa phlegm and couldn't bark properly. the phlegm gurgled disgustingly as it got all excited and worked up when it saw Faith. Bummer... ...
alritey, so much about Faith. Im going down to the hospital again. its been instilled in my daily routine now... ... oh well,as long as she's doing better, its fine with me.
as the day comes close to an end again, i still have unaccomplished tasks. hope i get the 4 sub woofers and 5.1 surround done up in the hall. im introducing an extra 4 subwoofers behind and living room, just behind the sofa. the main purpose is to feel the extreme impact(of flying forward) when one crashes while playing burnout on the ps2. *grins*
hope my neighbors dont complain...about the tremors :p
p.s thank you 'Tarrget' for popping by my blog :) and Daniel's comments about my font's colors. hope yellow's better - brighter :)
Andrea Yim
6:39 PM
=>my cousin(on ur right) and me! :p
Woke up to a stinging pain in my foot this morning. Did a whole lotta shopping yesterday. Kinda did a wardrobe revamp :) i pierced my ears too :)
woke up really early...felt that i was gettin fat, so, went for a good swim with my cousin.
then, went down town for a crazy shopping spree. Enjoyed myself a whole lot. oh btw, shopping as in really browsing through stuffs we wanna get and not LOOKING THRU A FEW STUFFED TOYS AT TOYS R' US... yea.that, in my context, is not shopping. :)
oh well...its a sad sad world today.
a friend just called to de-stress and share her troubles. needless to say, troubles of the heart.But i don't think its common nowadays. She loves this guy very much,and is willing to sacrifice alot for him.So,Ms A(lets call her that) did give alot,when guys are supposed to sacrifice more...well, being the guy. yea. but her boyfriend, Mr B(lets call him that)...despite all that she has done, he still cant forget his ex girlfriends... and she feels very helpless.she doesn't blame him being this way cos its not easy to let go of the past. So, she felt really frustrated and confused.But the worse thing was, she really loved him so much,she's willing to tolerate.Confessing her stupidity,she sighed.I hope she pulls herself back together and stay strong. :)
MYRAID OF COLORS
It was yet another of my uncle's thoughtless gifts:mundane and insignificant. It was,indeed,another item added to the weathered cardboard box sitting at one lonely corner of my room labelled 'junk'. A frown etched on my forehead as i tossed it into the box without hesitating,and sighed with much distaste. Perhaps it was jsut one of my mood swings that day that spoilt everything. My brows were knitted as the noise of the ceiling fan penetrated the still silence in my enclosed room. I did not fancy anyone's company and preferred to be all alone that sweltering hot afternoon. Slumping into the comfort of my cozy bed, my sight coincidentally settled onto thatunattractive yellow cardboard box,threatening to split it apart any moment. My mind plunged into total blankness and i felt numb. My eyes spoke the emptiness in me that very moment.
I had to admit that depression was the only cause of the disconcerted silence and darkness in me. the melancholic wooden block jutting out of the overstrained box had an authentic taste of uniqueness. it appealed to me as if it had an unexplainable force of attraction, so strong my resistance could not withstand.Together with my inquisitive nature,i gave in eventually.
I trudged mindlessly the the box as i fished out the foreign object. It was an act to ease my fervid hankers to reveal its purpose on Earth. I scanned it from every possible angle - twisting and turing it apprehensively, as i tried desperately to search for a clue of usefulness in it.
The piece of glass that sealed the end of the hollow wooden tube glinted everytime it met the sun rays that swiftly glided past the window sills,right into my room. To appease my common sense's urge to uncover the mysteries of what the insignificant gift beholds, i closed an eye and shiften my focus away from the physical qualities of it.
Peering through the circular piece of crystal clear glass, i was instantaneouslsy captured by the beauty of the patterns displayed. Different colors bond in unity to form a random but attractive shape. My mouth fell agape in rapt fascination.
I twitched in sheer excitement as a warm fuzzy feeling rose from my stomach to my throat. The kaleidoscope shool with a slight jerka dn the pattern changed.Soon,i can to a realisation. The patterns evolve as the tiny bits of tinted glass pieces are the cause behind each and every beautiful creation inside the kaleidoscope.
I squinted my eyes as i stared long and hard. Observing closely, i came to a conclusion taht the different colors piece in neatly with each other,despite their differing size,shape and color. To prove my hypothesis reliable, i kept turning the kaleidoscope in circles. My eyes were weary by now, but i managed to make a closer observation - the pieces moved slowly, falling into place as if each and every position was all planned for.
Accelerating the speed a little, i managed to skim through a handful of different patterns. To my surprise, i did not like some patterns as much as a few special others. As i was envisioning the panoramic view i could gain from the unattractive item,i was reluctantly unwilling to continue turning.
Snapping back to reality,my mind summoned my defiant hands to carry out its orders dutifully. Curbing my fantasies about the particular pattern which i have grown a special liking to; i ahd to keep on looking and browse through the other patterns the kaleidoscope could offer - nicer or worse.
All i could hope for was for fate to allow me to come upon the same pattern again. The reluctance as well as the enthusiasm to continue stirred up mixed emotions in me - my decisions were contradicting each other. Just then, my eyes glistened. The water in my eyes was a sigh of lethargy.
I was as if i just woke up from the sweetest dream, blurry eyed and dazed. Exhausted, it was as if i was taken for the most thrilling ride, and just landed back to Earth. Glancing at my watch, an hour had passed. I recalled the last thing i did before entering the "unbelievable world of mirages".
I was in a moody state. Sitting there helplessly, my mind fell deep with thought. My furrowed brows and piercing facial expression gave me away. It was time i took life and death seriously and reconsider my values,my purpose and meaning of exsistence.
The behaviour of the kaleidoscope resembled of my idea of the circle of life. The feeling of uncertainty, the unexpected turn-outs of events, suspense brought about unpredictability, etc. I guess, this is how fate works. However,no matter what happens,bad or good, life still had to go on, like how i had to keep turning the kaleidoscope or I would enver know what wonderful patterns were in stall for me that were yet to be formed.
From the understanding of the kaleidoscope, i learnt that we can only hope for the best in life. Even though we trip over obstacles along the journey, we still ahve to pick ourselves up adn move on for we never know what might happen. Like how unsightly patterns that did not suit my taste evolve into beautiful, colorful collages that simply captivated my attention at the slightest glance.
Andrea Yim
5:06 PM
Gonna burn some Cds...its been a tiring day. went down to the hospital...my aunt was ranting and raving at the ICU. oh my, what a disgrace. Really pissed me off.guess today's not a good day for me. she was shouting at the top of her voice IN THE ICU!everybody didn't want to argue with her.She just carried on yelping away like a fool... irritating...everyone's irritating me...
went to sentosa yesterday...it was cludy throughout!!!darn...din manage to tann...had fun jumping off jettys for a good splash...and injured my foot...oh wells...tired...gonna crash...see ya!
oh ya...stop irritating me benjYy!!!
god and enjoy your BRBs... i'll sit and watch :) and laugh... heh
Andrea Yim
10:08 PM
To apologise...or not to?
Guess it was never a habit that was instilled in us(my siblings and i). We had to learn it from the school or within our frens...or from some kind old wise grandmother or uncle... ... Maybe i should start practising the art of being PROACTIVE instead of being passive and take things for granted. Its a BIG leap,it is. If a parent is suppposed to educate their kid and at least TRY to be role models, shouldn't they be the one acting first? What's the point of ignoring the kids after giving them a good thrashing??? does that mean you can leave them alone because they look alright? not retarded yet? no blood clogs in the brain? no swellings on the face from the incessant tight slaps?
Well,then let me tell you... the kid has already mended the physical pain... ... him/herself. But whaT about the emotional pain,scars? If the kid is strong enough, good for him/her...the wound might heal...MIGHT. if it doesn't...well...it stays...like a scar that mar beauty that lies within. What's tragic would be... the hurt causing an after effect...probably a wierdness in character......or a malfunction of the EQ...not IQ. Or, a foul attitude towards life...and mannerism towards people. Who knows?
I'm just hoping that i don't become a victim of all these bullshit. Perhaps, i already am. All i need is some good music to tranquilise the confused,frantic soul... slow down and think carefully... ... Yea, maybe i have to swallow my pride... Arrgh...its so difficult... Hope things will get better after i did. All these do have a chain reaction...and it is a process that carries down for years...before you realise the cause...the root of the problem, ur entangled in a list of problems that cause sleepless nights, a messed up YOU. Then. it'd be more difficult to get out.Emotional fitness conditioning is what I need... to accustom to the different situations,like this.
I know its irritating that i don't give a full picture. Its long...and im just plain lazy to type everything out.
I guess i'm starting to get a taste of what life is... my sincere apologies to the people whom i have neglected... ... or feel neglected...or those who think i'm selfish. Welcome to the world...where selfish people overpower the rest, isn't it?
Admit it.
Andrea Yim
7:05 PM
"Collide"
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mindI somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally findYou and I collide
You finally findYou and I collide
Andrea Yim
3:07 PM
No, it wasn't a M.I.A :)
Wow...its been a week since a last blogged. Well,its been a tough week for me. Cooped up at home,no work.Just plain home-staying and rotting. Oh wells,played ps2 the whole time.I'm proud to say, i've completed Burnout Revenge :) thanks.... :p
Basically, I'm like a sheet of crystal clear piece of glass at home. Everybody comes and goes. I'm just left there-now i know how Faith feels like. I guess,im worse,sad to say. They do pat her and bid their farewells to her before they go along and settle their daily chores.
My neck is still aching...I've been a victim of brutality of the bare hands.To be more specific, its more the head area that have fallen into bad hands. I'm still functioning quite well-thank God. Its just the neck and a small portion of the head which aches occasionally. I'm quite fine now, yup.
I knew i wasn't supposed to cry...I was in the wrong. But the tears still fell, for the physical pain that overwhelmed me. Fortunately, it wasn't a long night. I fell asleep shortly, awakening to a bright new day.
I groped my way to the toilet to find that i looked fine. Gazing out of the window, i took a deep breath, envisaged the panoramic view that fell before my eyes. The morning sun lit the treetops ablaze...over the golden horizon, I wondered what was beyond, what was in store for me-a little soul. A quick glace at my watch told me it was barely 7. I dragged myself back to bed. Groggy, i stared into thin air as i laid, limp and lifeless.
Perhaps,death would be a better choice. But then again, the limits will never be realised,horizons will never be explored. Tough choice, cos its irreversible. If only it was... ... Is this life?
Different people will give me their diversified views of this scary,controversial topic-LIFE. But its no point, i guess life has a different meaning to each and every one, be it the young old, wise or plain nonsensical...good-for-nothing......boring...fun-loving, etc.
I have no comments about life at the moment.I'm in a dilemna.I do hope i find my mind of my own soon. Soon enough to help me make the right decisions at crucial points of my life.
Take care. Happy weekend-ing. :)
Andrea Yim
11:41 AM
Ps2, please work....and numb me... ...
Andrea Yim
1:59 PM
Mr Doc,please place her first...its critical.
That was the plead to the doctor on duty at TTSH last night at the A and E department.I rushed down at around 8 plus,immediately after work.Stood by a controversial argument about an urgent operation.Her stomach was disgustingly bloated,and she was in distinctive agony as she whined from time to time.Yes, it was my plead,to the doctor.There were 10 people before her.But it was obvious she couldn't take the pain anymore.These 10 people were handcuffed by burly policemen with terribly stern looking faces.They were a bunch of juvenile delinquents who didn't seem like they needed immediate attention.Guess they were caught for drug abuse.Its was written all over their pale faces scarred with dark eye rings which betrayed the sleepless nights of hardcore partying and whatever else. I have been neglecting my blog recently due to the failing health of this particular person.*sighs* Maybe I've been taking everything for granted.
I wasn't always there when she needed me.Thinking back,there were so many chances i could talk and spend time with her...but i never did treasure them. Now, i'm not sure if i will ever get the chance to again. it all happened so abruptly.In the next 72 hours, she might be operated again. And its a fact,unless a miracle happens, she will not survive.
A tingling sensation wells up in my stomach as it travels slowly up, to my nose.I withdraw with much reaction as i stretch out for the tissue box.
As these tears cascade freely down my cheeks,like streams that faintly meander down a map of a beautiful landscape.I wonder if she knows,that,these tears I shed,are specially for her.And its all that i can offer.I feel so helpless.
I do not wish for history to repeat itself.To the Pom-Berrians,If i ever made you feel that i don't care about the people around me, all those who have truly cared about me(you guys),I'm sorry. I just want to let all of you know that,I didn't want to pull you guys down with all these problems. Its a totally different set of problems that you guys face in life,at this point in time. I felt that,its my problems, and its only right that i settle them myself.Guess,i was wrong.I didn't know how you guys will feel.
As for OTHERS,i don't know if YOU are reading this.But,i've never meant to hurt anyone,perhaps its my insensitivity.When i was with you,I was still feeling very lost-in fact even more lost.I made it seem as if I felt better after your efforts comforting me,because i didn't want to lose the company and you being around for me.Being with you,seriously, I don't know how to react to your different actions.Sometimes, i wonder if i should leave you alone and be alone myself when we hang out, due to ur nature and habit of being alone.I dont know what to do.*should i go along with my wishes and enjoy your company and share my thoughts*Whatever the case is,I've drawn the line.what's most important is that...I wanna let you know that i still do care for you,for whoever you are. But its up to you if you allow it and accept me for who i am. I'm always here,as a confidante,hang out partner(dunno if i'll make a good one)...or...gamer. :)
Somebody told me this,which I found rather helpful. In reality, we have different phases of life,both good and bad. But they all happen for a reason. Every phase has an end, just like placing a fullstop to written sentences. If a fullstop is not placed,a new phase of life can never begin, leaving you stuck in the present problem brooding over it in self pity. Everyone is unique and special, and their existences proves that they must burn bright. :) There you go.
Paperwork and more paperwork for me everyday.There's an aviation exhibition going on these days at Suntec. The entrance fee is US$75 per bloody head.
I'll take leave here.its my fifth trip to the hospital for the past 20 hours.Fatigue has overwhelmed me,face it.I 'll get by,somehow.I will.And grow to be a stronger person...Will be making my way down to the hospital soon.
As my character and personality develops... ...
For the time being,i'll sit by and watch how it shapes up.Take care people,I'm always here.
Andrea Yim
12:21 PM
Just another mundane day? Not really, i guess.
Ahh,finally got my ps2 working.Its freaking slim i should say. But i have to place stuff below the ps2 to prevent it from getting overheated. Facts aside, it looks great on my 53 inch projection screen!!! :) Oh man, i feel like im turning into a tech geek soon.
I feel much better now. Guess i'm just being too emotional(its the normal me) Part of my character...so can't really be helped. Just glad that I'm over it. But, not forgetting the fact that I've received alot of help...Kelvin,Kervin,Aaron,Kelly,Adam,A.K,Jerry Aka Jeremiah...many more.(sorry guys, cant really remember all rite now.But i can assure you guys one thing...I feel so blessed with you people around.Without you guys,I don't know who i am today. Right now, at this very moment. So, just wanna let all of you know, that, You are treasured :)
Grandma's birthday today...went to Jumbo at Serangoon Gadens. They have rather nice pubs there.Oh wells, played a few games of pool...gonna go out soon. I need a breather again. Something to distract. Its a monday again...in exactly 37 mins from now.Monday reminds me of work...Its such a routinal thing whereby everyone jams into the bus or MRT.Faces that you see can tell what they had been doing for the past two days.(Perhaps its just my imagination running wild) it always does.Guess that's why I'm always seen very blur or in a daze.Imight not talk much(as in say my mind) but i'm thinking...It ain't very nice but for most people who know me well enough, they know that im like that.
Realised i haven't been catching up on reading.I'd recommend the Chronicles of Narnia.Although the movie will be coming out soon,(its already out in JB) hah. Its a series of 7 books in sequence. yup. By C.S Lewis. However, i guess i gotta move on. I'd really appreciate if i can get some recommendations :) I'll take leave and play my ps2 for now.
'Need for speed,underground 2'is difficult to play with the controllers.I'd prefer the steering wheel.'Quake 3,team arena'is better with multiple players. Other than that, no thanks, I'll still stick to Burnout Revenge. :D somehow, Burnout Revenge's graphics sucks when compared to Need for speed. Oh wells, Just my opinion. ok guys, tata! Do take care. I'm going back to check out what the games has to offer. I've never thought the ps2 would offer such great company...and has the ability to whisk you off so far from reality, you forget all your troubles(and u dont have to face it) and enjoy and indulge in the violence and techniques.Other than that, sentosa works too.But, ps2 is better *big grins* .If there's something better, i'll get it. :) meanwhile, im contented with my ps2.gonna try to get the final fantasy X. its sold out fer the moment. hmmm...Burnout, here i come! :)
Andrea Yim
10:56 PM
My ps2!!!But I'm so broken...
This is NOT A FANTASY. I just bought it. The slimmer version of ps2. Its damn slim but it has its disadvantages.Sexy,i should say. but, it can't work. Still trying to figure out the problem. Apparently i got it from one of the places my fren goes to get his ps2 games. Got the whole console including 2 controllers, a memory card, 5 games(but the uncle gave me one extra free :D) ...all for $420.
The more i stay at home, the more i think. I need a breather. I went out. Walked past the whole place where we walked just last night. Went to PS, ate lunch....walked to sunshine plaza, realised that one of the nice pubs along prinsep street is owned by one of my friend.Dropped by, he offered me a drink.i felt really uncomfortable and i could feel a surge of emotions welling up inside me. Feeling a little uncomfortable, I suggested that we catch up outside the pub instead. It was about 6.30 pm? And there wasn't anyone patronising the pub yet.Didn't talk much, just a typical catch up chat and took off...hoping my legs would take me somewhere else less familiar...i went home.
I woke up today Woke up wide awake In an empty bed Staring at an empty room I have myself to blame For the state I'm in today And now, dyin' doesn't seem so cruel And oh, I don't know what to say And I don't know anyway, anymore I hate myself for losing you I'm seeing it all so clear I hate myself for losing you What do you do when you look in the mirror And staring at you is why he's not hereYou got what you deserved Hope your happy now Cause every time I think of her with you It's killing me inside And now I dread each day Knowing that I can't be saved From the loneliness of living without you And oh, I don't know what to do Not sure that I'll pull through I wish you knew I hate myself for losing you I'm seeing it all so clear I hate myself for losing you What do you do when you look in the mirror And staring at you is why he's not hereI hate myself for losing you And oh, I don't know what to do Not sure that I'll pull through I wish you knew I wish you knew And oh, I don't know what to say And I don't know anyway, anymore I hate myself for losing you I'm seeing it all so, I'm seeing it all so clear I hate myself for losing you What do you do when you look in the mirror And staring at you is why he's not hereWhat do you say when everything you said Is the reason why he left you in the end How do you cry when every tear you shedWon't ever bring him back againI hate myself for loving you
Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleepI’m barely hanging on Here I am, once again I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes I told you everything, opened up and let you in You made me feel alright, for once in my life Now all that’s left of me is what I pretend to be So together, but so broken up inside Cause I can’t breathe, no I can’t sleepI’m barely hanging on Here I am, once again I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes Swallow me, then spit me out For hating you, I blame myself Seeing you, it kills me now No, I don’t cry on the outside anymore AnymoreHere I am, once again I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cryBehind these hazel eyes Here I am, once again I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cryBehind these hazel eyes
nice songs, i thought to myself. I don't know if anyone appreciates it. Lest, my intentions. I can't blame them...its always the case, I'm used to it. My intentions are never protrayed the way i want them to be. My head aches,it really does. I don't wanna think anymore.get out of my life,NOW.
...i hate to say this,but i guess i have to.....'.help'...
Andrea Yim
10:36 PM
Envisaged bright future in ruins? I won't let it happen.
Hmmm.sorry guys, no fantasies today.I need a break and get outta the house to get a breather.-the more i stay in, ther more thinks jam up in my mind.And that sucks.Basically,its another rough patch.Then again, someone cares. Im sorry, Pom-berrians. A big thank you goes out to Adam,Aaron,Iskandar, Kelly, Vinko, Eugene-especially. thanks for accompanying me through the difficult night last night. I'm throung it and am feeling a little better.Thanks Eugene,for offering the car ride all the way down from jurong east then to town for the audio show and dinner after that to cool off and think rationally and get things off my mind.i just don't wanna drag people's mood down,alongside with mine...
As for Vinko, i know ur going through difficult situations and stuff...Just let ya know that i'll always be here, the least i could do is listen. Thanks to kelly, for accompanying me all the way till 6am in the morning today.I will sleep well tonight. Perhaps, like what all of you said, its not worth my time and energy to mull over it.
I do treasure my part in the 'Pom-berrian community, i really do. sometimes, the stuff that i do, its better that i don't say. I do enjoy the times when we hung out and had fun, its more like what a norm should do. guess, im just ageing too quickly. I'm sorry.
If this is what it takes for me to learn a lesson(the hard way). i guess i'll have to.I'll be fine at the end of the day, but i'll never forget having friends like you guys.I've neglected you guys too. I really wish everything could start afresh. My life, you guys...and all the others....sometimes i try....but misunderstandings happen...that's why i shy away from reality. Perhaps, im a coward. I know i have to face it, and i'm starting to learn how to.
When chances are given, to treasure it is the only thing anyone would do. But, when misunderstnadings or assumptions occur, i can't put myself through all the shit again...I'm just very hurt...till...I'm insensitive to how people would feel towards me and just coop myself up in my little world of crap. I thought i was beginning to open up...but things never went the smooth sailing way people wanted it to be. Guess, its another big round of... ...emotional turmoil and feelings of helplessness...then again, nothing can be done.
I wish everyone the best in their life, be it in their o's,in their long/short term goals or...merely living life day by day hoping to live pass it(rotting at home?drink till their liver fails them?smoke till their lungs turn inhumanely black?) I don't know and i don't wish to know either. as far as i'm concerned, i am also here for all of you. I'm not giving up on anyone of you. None. But, yes Lynne, ur right. Its you who turn your back on the world.
Andrea Yim
2:32 PM
---*** this is a liquid force ps3 133. haha---
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Its another holiday. Hari Raya, to be precise. Here i am, wasting my time sitting in front of the PC,staring blankly at the monitor,lost in my own reverie. it must have been the few ps2 games that i have just played that caused the intellectual skill to think within me, to numb.heh.
After screening through most games and trying out a handful, i will still stick to burnout revenge and pledge my loyalty to it-not until i find a game that appeals to me more.I wonder if such a game really exists out there. I'd be interested to know. No thanks, definitely no gunbound or runescape or... ... i'm not good at this.(whatever). :D hehe
see those freaking cool wake boards? ok, let me educate the old,in case they do not know what wake boards are. ...oh,wait a minute...*stares at the com for 15 mins* i don't think i know how to explain. just check out the website www.wakeboard.com
going for a bbq soon...then my granny's birthday dinner at a seafood joint-Jumbo. probably hit the bowling alley for a few rounds before i head home :) hope you guys enjoy the holiday....work tomorrow.i'm praying very hard for something more interesting than laminating catalogues and less tiring than going for appointments running up and down :) hehe...
uhm...cycled about 10-15 click this morning.along yio chu kang road den to yishun. phew... was a good work out. but wasn't as effective as i thought it would turn out to be cos some people wanted to TAKE THEIR TIME AND ENJOY THE RIDE. *what crap* :p then where's the work out? no kick!anyways,i'm fine. i enjoyed it somehow...ahhh....im hungry. hmmm....
one thing that i can never put up with is the inconsiderate manners and ways of singaporeans,and guess what, its unintentional!!! for heavens sake, can't they stop living in a world of their own, be more aware of what's going around them and think of the consequences of what may happen TO OTHERS? apparently and obviously, they don't.and that's really sad. you can't blame the foreigners for lodging complains against our brainless acts of selfishness in the forum.its a cultural 'gulf' that seperates our mindset from theirs. i'm not saying who's right or wrong here.However, do a comparison-who gets a better impression and stands out more in the world?(forget the fact that we are a tiny DOT)we only use that excuse to cover up our own asses. singaporeans who drag their worn out flip-flops around no matter where they go? i guess they old aged slippers must have seen quite alot in its lifetime-from the coffeeshop to the hotel to the muddy marshes at the illegal fishing grounds near those canals. ..... or others who knows how to hold themselves well and spare a thought for others?
why am i bitching? u must be thinking. well, obviously i had a disgusting encounter with a family of four while cycling on the pavement today. it was narrow enough for a cyclist and a pedestrian to shave past each other,clinging on to hopes that they don't knock into each other.and there was this family who were trying to hail a cab by the roadside. they had bags laden with i-don't -know-what.there were many and those bags CONVENIENTLY OCCUPIED the WHOLE PAVEMENT! what do you expect us, cyclists, to do? get off the OCCUPIED PAVEMENT and onto the road with busy ONCOMING TRAFFIC??!!!??In addition to that, they didn't seem bothered at all upon the sight of us,cyclists, trying to get through. *if only we could ram right into them or their bags of i-don't know-what.* then again, i'm not that evil :) He knows. i'll just shut up and let it all out here and thats it..
alritey... i gotta run for my bbq. hate to leave this place*as in wehre i am now* but, oh wells. i know i have to. this is life. i'll be back soon.probably stock up the food in the fridge fer ya. *the heart is willing but the flesh is weak* sobs ,i gotta work tomorrow too. rest well today, its a holiday :) thank you for dropping by and reading all my rants. :) haha. at least i know, someone cares. i care,too.
peaceouts*
Andrea Yim
6:00 PM
http://www.cannondale.com/bikes/06/CUSA/large/6SC1Cblu.jpgCarbon Unibody Design.The Unibody lay-up technique is a stronger, lighter-weight process than lugged or monocoque designs, providing smoother tubing junctures and greater freedom of sizing. Ultimately, it means the Synapse will perform exactly the way you need it to.
Frame
Synapse Carbon Si*
Fork
Synapse S.A.V.E.+
Rear Shock
N/A
Rims
Mavic Ksyrium SL
Hubs
Mavic Ksyrium SL
Spokes
Mavic Ksyrium SL
Tires
Hutchinson Fusion foldable, 700 x 23c
Pedals
N/A
Crank
Cannondale Carbon Compact Si, 36/50, 110BCD
Chain
Shimano Dura Ace 10-speed
Rear Cogs
Shimano Dura Ace, 12-25
Bottom Bracket
Dependent on crank option
Front Derailleur
Shimano Dura Ace
Rear Derailleur
Shimano Dura Ace
Shifters
Shimano Dura Ace
Handlebars
FSA K-Wing Carbon
Stem
FSA OS-115C w/Carbon faceplate
Headset
FSA Carbon integrated
Brakeset
Shimano Dura Ace
Brakelevers
Shimano Dura Ace
Saddle
Fi'zi:k Aliante Gamma Ti
Seat Post
Cannondale Carbon
Colors
Carbon (gloss) (BBQ), Patriot Blue, Pearl White, (gloss) (BLU), Fine Silver, Pearl White, (gloss) (SLV).
Sizes
47, 50, 53, 56, 58, 60, 63 cm
here the link to my dream bike. haha.another of my many obsessions.but i must say, its really cool.don't you agree?hehe.oh wells,buggers...are what's disturbing me right now. didn't i tell you to get out of my life? oh wells.what to do. i'm looking forward to the holiday tomorrow.ahhh....its quite late. thanks everyone, for tagging me.i really appreciate it people! i'll link u guys soon.till then, i miss my baby lots...i really do...its ok if nobody knows how it feels, i know, and im contented with just that.
signs off grogily, Andrea a.k.a Yimmie
i'm tired. *stares at you blankly* doodle....*heh*
Andrea Yim
12:39 AM
this is the n3.i like the silver tint.it goes with white. :)
this is the n1.the all-white feel makes it look like the ultimate pro's racket(which it really is).
Ego and people
Maybe u guys can enlighten me about people with big egos.As in really huge ones.Sometimes, i really wonder where's their self esteem.(probably too high up there,you can't see it with your naked eyes)In short, I abhor people who are categorized under this theme-the big ego shit people. I apologise for my uncouth manner of speech. Maybe i should be kind and offer these people a mirror or buy them one when i strike the lottery.
Alright, lets move on.I've been fantasizing over the new tennis racket N-CODE. As you can see it above. the top notch ones, the n1 and n3.hmmm, anyways, my birthday is coming!!! * hint hint* ....lol...so is christmas (more time to save up and buy for me as a present) :p hehe.
n1 force is a Ultimate power racket. Great sweet spot and maximum responsiveness on off-center hits. The flagship of the new nCode technology featuring full nZone to provide a more active string bed.
Balance:
13 pts. HH
Cross Section:
33.0 mm Dual Taper Beam
Grip Size:
4- 4 5/8"
Headsize:
125"
Length:
27.75"
Material:
20% nCoded Hyper Carbon, 80% nCoded Graphite
Series:
nCode
SI:
1
String Pattern:
16 X 20
Swing Style:
Short & Compact
String Tension:
55 - 65 lbs.
Weight:
9.3 oz. Strung
AS for the n3,its Combined with Triad technology for maximum power, comfort and control.
Sugg. Retail:
US $269.99
Stock Number:
T7523
Balance:
8 pts. HH
Cross Section:
31 mm Dual Taper Beam
Grip Size:
4"-4 5/8"
Headsize:
116"
Length:
27.5"
Material:
30% nCoded Hyper Carbon / 70% nCoded High Modulus Graphite
Series:
nCode
SI:
3
String Pattern:
16x19
Swing Style:
Slow and Compact
String Tension:
55-65 lbs.
Weight:
9.4 oz. Strung
hehe.so much for my obsession about the not-so-new-already ncode series. Aparently, encountered something really INTERESTING at work today. There was a new comer who joined the admin department on Monday.Not intending to discriminate any one, race or origin, she was a china girl who just graduated from a poly,with a diploma in engineering.To be frank, i really wonder how she actually clinched that diploma.her grammer sucks to the core!She couldn't even type a simple return letter to inform the corresponding company that we haven't receive the delivery order(DO) that they promised to fax over. This was what she typed in her reply via e-mail(luckily she didn't send it straight away).here goes.
" Dear Mr. .... ,
we are not recieved the delivery order.Please send again.THANKS®ards, lilian. (the Boss's name in small letters!!!) "
She was made to re-do the simple return letter 3 times,as requested by the lady boss, till satisfactory results were seen. It was 7pm when she left the office.Oh, another joke.She was made to fax something to a singaporean company.On the fax machine, there were a few stickers pasted on it. The biggest one that would catch everyone's attention at a glance was the overseas faxing code which was 1516, to kickstart the dialling to an overseas company.the smaller one was the 019 dialling code. She used the 019 code to dial a singapore fax number! it didn't work. She thought she pressed the number wrongly.she used the 019 code again. since i was photocopying some stuff, i told her she could just dial the number,without adding the 019 in front. she insisted.i suggested to her that she could try my idea, if it doesn't work, i'll leave it to her.i dialled the singapore number itself and it worked.she walked away leaving HER document with ME. Hello?!? i smiled and was being kind.sigh.i guess, this is the world today.ALL HAIL TO SELFISHNESS AND AGGRESSION.-particularly in the working world.
oh wells, what to do?*sniff* irritating nose.welcome back mr sinus.sat infront of the laminating machine laminating 10 catalogue books today.my nose is numb to the smell of burnt plastic now.i wonder how many cancer cells are more reactive inside me now. :D okie folks, thats all for now. Pon de replay by Rihanna is quite nice.We'll catch up tomorrow? see ya,good night.
peaceouts.
Andrea Yim
9:17 PM
Its me,blogging again.Surprised? :p
Its a new start, a new beginning for me. I'm just hoping everything turns out well. I'm so afraid of screwing up. Just finished deleting the past 2 yrs???(physically-in this blog)hopefully, mentally as well. its a public holiday today.I'm rather burnt out so decided to stay at home, accompany my dog-Faith. Maybe i'll bring her out tonight. I came across this star wars (revenge of the sith) blogskin.Looked quite nice but i don't like that green guy with pointed ears.(who's that?yoda?). my sincere apologies to the avid star wars fans.I'm not really a follower of something out of the galaxy-something beyond my wildest imaginations that would ever happen in my lifetime.so forget it...I'll put up more pics in time to come. I know some of u guys bugging me for pics in my blog.I'll attend to that soon :) so much for opening speech. :p
I've been window shopping quite a bit recently.Its only then, i realised i need a wardrobe revamp. LOL. Toning down nowadays, guess i won't be 'flying around' that much anymore. Been playing pool really frequently,but it ain't my cup of tea. Will stick to tennis and sailing or kayaking. wakeboarding too. However, I'll never miss out my beach chill-outs at sentosa. haha. (thats my reply to you, mortimer) heh, yup. cheers.we'll go, one day.
As far as i could remember, he used to be really good at pool cos his workplace was a stone's throw from the pool club at hard rock. I'll cycle today, bikes getting rusty if i don't put them to good use for too long.( and im getting fat too) gotta get my ass off the couch. guess i just miss the days we would have 'friendly competitions' competing for more number of situps that one could do in a minute. obviously,he would win.but, its a happy memory that stays,still,even when i lose. I can still remember the closest I got to his record was 52-55. ouch* thats pretty close, i find. i regretted letting this wonderful chance go. if time could be reversed for me to re-write history,i wouldn't have let this go. i guess i was too blinded,like a fool. so , i don't wanna repeat this mistake again.I really treasure whatever i have now.
"no matter what you are,i'll always be with you.no matter what you do, i'll always be here for you."-adapted from the album rock of ages by Def Ceppard. song titled "no matter what".i guess this is not the first time im saying this, but i really mean it.
I'll make use of this break to work out seriously and think everything over. In the mean time, catch up with people who are coming back from their study break over in Australia.
Andrea Yim
2:38 PM